neeeeeeeeeeeeew
Mood:  sad
K, I have a new blog. It's http://toxicmemory.livejournal.com/

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Megan <3333

srry....havent written in awhile
Mood:  a-ok
Now Playing: The World Is Black: Good Charlotte
I'm sorry I haven't written in awhile. I really do mean to write everyday...just forget alot. Well, let's c, tomorrow is Valentines Day and im single. hehe, makes me think of the happy times when i was dating ryan....great guy. neways, i have no idea wut im doing tomorrow. I wish I had sumbody to call my own :(. Im so lonely. Well, lets c....wut have i been up to. Drew and Abbey had their family bday party on saturday. So, erika and jd came down. Then i just walkled around the orchard thinking. been texting bak in fourth w/ harley alot. afraid to c my bill at the end of this month...jk jk jk it wont b that high. yesterday i thought i was losing becca, but i talked to her today. things r kool again. i hope she'll get to come out this summer. that would b so awesome. mmm,the kittens r getting pretty big. they r about the size cream was when he died. ok, sad story... moving on. well, the video below is just of me being a dork, as usual. allie pressed record and i didn't notice. hehe, i thought it was funny :P welps, enjoy!

Megan <3333

Haven't Written In Awhile
Mood:  caffeinated
Now Playing: Nothing :o
Well, I haven't written in awhile. Srry ppl. mmm, today has been alright. woke up way too early for my liking :P then skool BLEH....came home got on the comp, barely ne1 was on. so I put my bikini and went to lay in my backyard to get a tan.....yes i know its the beginning of Feb. -.- hehe, and my cats wouldn't leave me alone. Then I came bak inside and got on the comp. Dalton was on so I talked to him and harley got on a few minutes after i came inside. I did math hw and all that other shit while talking to ppl. mmm, harley is triggerhappy101 for those of u that didnt know that. well, luis made me upset earlier, but as always he made me happy again within a few minutes. i hate how him and dalton know exactly wut to do and say to make me happy no matter how im feeling. well, its good sumtimes, but sumtimes i just feel like being mad at them(if that makes ne sense)i know they both read this, so i dont know how much i should really say about wut im thinking and how im feeling about all this stuff thats going on. i dont even know how to explain the newest details to james. i mean, hes been w/ me through all of it, but now since im starting to....ahh nvm, starting to say too much. james y the hell r u sleeping, i need u right now :( i guess ill c if kody's on. he'll help me too. nope, hes not on. grr, none of the ppl that ill talk to about this shit is on. wut am i supposed to do about it all. i mean, i like dalton, but i like luis too, but its not like it used to b at all. i mean a few months ago i wouldnt have even considered dumping dalton, but now...im just not happy nemore, and i dont know why, but sumhow i still luv him. and then luis...im still trying to figure out y hes even interested in a freshmen :P but who cares...hes nice, makes me happy, but also, theres sumthing that doesnt feel quite right w/ him either. and then theres this other guy(i can just imagine luis' and dalton's faces when they c this :o), im not gonna say a name, id tell james -if he were on-, but im starting to like him and i just feel like i can trust him and everything, but i dont really want this guy to know cuz im not even over dalton and luis yet, and idl if i will b. we'll c. i really need to talk to james.......or becca. well, enough about my new mystery man, that i know dalton and luis r gonna b begging to know about tomorrow :P btw guys, im -not- telling who it is. muahahahahahaha. lmao neways, ive actually been pretty happy today in general. which is good since i havent been ery happy the past few weeks. altho, im veeeeeeeeeeeery bored. welps, im tired. cya ppl!

Megan

Bored
Mood:  silly
Now Playing: Scars: Papa Roach/ Going Under: Evanessence/ My Girl's Ex Boyfriend: Relient K
Hey ppl! whats up? Well let's see, I'm at school right now. Im soooooo bored. I wanna go home. I still feel horrible bleh. I stayed up late last night w/ Luis and Shane. Drew's ace is starting to look alot better. So thats good. Im probably gonna go to Atwater next year. Im tired of this place. I can't wait till summer. So we can use our pool again and I can run around the orchard in a bikini and surprisingly play in the mud....hehe. The things u miss after u havent had them in awhile. Its really fun when they have the orchard sprinkers on and we play tag and stuff or play volleyball. Also not having school would be great. IDK, summers my favorite time of year.U get Wear as little as possible and just have fun. Neways, im bored so Im gonna go. TTYL

BLEH
Mood:  lucky
Now Playing: Ocean Avenue: Yellowcard
Ok, wow I havent written in a few days. And neither has ne1 else :( well, i think Im getting sick. sneezing alot and coughing and my throat hurts and my head hurts annnnnnnnd i don't wanna go newhere! but knowing my aunt she will make me. hmm, did i tel u guys wut happened to drew over the weekend? well, he was sledding face first down this hill and ran right into a tree stump at like 20 mph. o.o he lost a tooth, broke his nose, and got like 8 stitches inside his mouth cuz he tore like this whole section of his mouth. he looks pretty scary. but he hasnt cried at all. i know i would. drew is my cousin for those of u who dont know. well, yesterday i was really lucky on conquer. i found 5 gems. 2 normal rainbows, 1 normal dragon, 1 refined phoenix, and 1 super dragon....yay!! hmmm, i g2g so ill ttyl!

dooooooooooooogs
Mood:  spacey
Now Playing: Breakin Free: Zac Efron and Ashley Tisedale
Ok, so today my dad and stepmom drove me and jordan to san fran to watch a bunch of dogs at a dog show o.o booooooooooooooooreing.....lol. and they didnt even get me lunch!!!!! ahhh and then my stepmom being the bitch she is got me fritos, she knows i dont like unless i have chilli w/ em, and i gave em to my brother and she says "Megan...u dont like fritos?" and i said "ummm noooo not w/o chilli" then shes like, "o im sorry....i didnt know" w/ this innocent look on her face grrrrrr. so now im at home starving waiting for dinner. then were gonna watch Red Eye. yay! havent seen it yet. Michelle said it was better then Flightplan, but she could just b saying that cuz rachael mcadams(her fav actress) is in it. well, now becca is asking me about sum guy i went to Rocky w/.....that i barely even know, he just rode my bus and hung out w/ my ex and his brother. welps, im bored so im gonna go. ttyl

Sorry PPL
Mood:  d'oh
Now Playing: Hold On: Good Charlotte
hehe, im sorry i didnt write last night guys. it just slipped my mind, so i decided to write this morning. well, yesterday was a busy day. i helped the younger kids w/ one of their field trips, went to skool, came home, and started another movie w/ my cousins. we only got the first scene done tho, cuz me and vron kept messing around :o and we had to redo it about 50 times ><...it was fun tho. we'll finish next week or so cuz we'll both b gone this weekend. it was fun tho. i wonder if i can get sum of our old movies on the internet. ill try! hmmm, then after that first scene was done...me and drew uploaded it to the comp and were trying to figure out this new software so we can edit it the way we want. we'll c. then it was time for dinner. pizza!!!!! yummy yummy yummy.........and lets c...this morning drew, allie, vron, abbey, aunt rhonda, and uncle rick left for their trip. and im just sitting here bored. so im gonna go. ill write more later. byebye

LALALALALA
Mood:  flirty
Now Playing: Punk Rock Princess: SoCo(Something Corporate)
Wow, today I have been so tired. So i think im gonna go to bed after i finish this. i went to the library and got sum new books. yay! lets c, wut else did i do. i ate dinner and danny and corey's. talked to my friends. o, and i got a new msn. mj.rox.hard@gmail.com if ya want it. now im on TeamSpeak listening to a song kitkat is playin. man, im so tired. i dont even know wut to say. both luis and dalton r begging me to go bak to them, but idk wut im gonna do. ok, maybe not begging...they just bring it up alot. id rather just b friends w/ them right now. welps....goodnight ppl!

Just Friends
Mood:  silly
Now Playing: Small Things: Blink 182
Hey! Well, Im single -again-. im just friends w/ dalton and luis, which feels great for the time being. well, kinda, has its goods and bads. ooo, and today i found out kody likes me. hes really sweet. mmm, mom left for her cruise this morning. i hope she gets sum good pics. i hope she has some fun w/ her friends. she really needed a vacation and to have sum fun. she doesnt get that opportunity as much w/ dad not being around and u can tell, she gets so stressed out and tired and gets irritated easy and start her chocolate and diet coke diet(which amazingly makes her -too skinny-...how that diet works? i have no idea). neways, im glad she got to go. even tho that means having gma sleep at our house. i went on a 2mile walk today w/ my lil cousin vron...shes my mini me. she acts too much like me its annoying sumtimes. she dresses all funky yet girly at times, wears her pants way too low for ne normal person's comfort, luvs good charlotte and ne other music i like except for occassional metal band, always has an excuse for everything, luvs animals, luvs singing and dancing, says the word "like" a lil too much, and much more. all of which i do hehe :P o yah, well we walked on the canal and we found this tadpole...it was huge and it was on the ground bleeding so we decided to poke it w/ a stick :o it was still alive...so i picked it up and threw it in the canal cuz im nice like that :) then we came home and i had to do algebra homework bleh. mmm, im deciding whether to watch Vanity Fair or not(did u know Reese Witherspoon had to film the movie when she was pregnant so her boobs would fit in her dress :P) neways, im just talking to kody and listening to music. ttyl

Im freezing
Mood:  cool
Now Playing: Ocean Avenue: Yellowcard
mmmmmmm, im so cold :( y does my room get so cold @ nite? i dont like it...i dont like being cold at night...could have sumthing to do w/ wearing very little, but hey i cant stand not feeling my blanket on my stomach and legs when i sleep, so therefore i have to wear very little. neways, today has been alright. i got to c my gmas new dog...its name is Corky o.O its kinda mean tho, but very cute. im hungry too, i didnt have dinner, but its too late to get up and get sumthin. im so happy, lost summore weight...im in the best shape ive ever been in...wearing smalls instead of mediums, yay! im skinnier...i can tell, my legs r fit....ahh i luv it. y cant it be summer now? id look awesome in a bikini w/ this body...hopefully i dont gain nething. well, i bought 2 pairs of shoes today. hehe...i luv shopping. i should b one of those mystery shoppers. fun fun! mom leaves for her cruise tomorrow. she comes bak friday. and i go to my dads this weekend. bleh! that means no conquer...unless of course i download it again w/o him knowing. going to maryland on feb 17th...yay!!! spend that weekend w/ jessie. ive known her forever. since i was like 4 months old. were alot alike too. blonde hair, tall, both good at softball, skinny, straight teeth(thank God for braces......o yes, and thank him for not letting us have braces nemore :P), same interest in music. o, and our moms r best friends. welps, getting my belly button peirced in a week or 2, im so excited!!! mmm, ive been singing all day, as usual. its amazing to c how much my voice has improved since when i was younger. i guess i just learned how to sing "right", alot of ppl dont know how. its just amazing how far u can push ur voice and sretch it and keep stretching and stretching till that note actually comes into ur range. my voice teacher is even expecting me to b able to sing at least a whole octave higher o.o scary....actually not really. being scared ruins it, losing ur confidence ruins ur voice. if u sing w/o worrying about it or being scared ur voice is so much stronger and better. hehe, srry gotta lil carried away w/ teaching u about singing. well, ive prob bored the hell out of u all, if ur even still reading this. ttyl ppl. luv ya!

Love Always
MJ